If I only wanted a **** I'd pay for it; believe you me, I can't be arsed with the dating game anyway as it's too much hassle.  You get what you pay for if you pay for it, as you end up paying and not neccessarily getting it on a date anyway.  I *am* that mercenary about it I'm afraid. 

Maybe.

Garyi and you are of course right; there lies the rub - I have *not* held out for this person ever - I'm always on the prowl.  It's the confidence hit that being disabled has that causes me the issues (though I have my moments).  Don't worry guys - if I get any opportunities these days I do my best, but usually kcuf up!  D'oh!

I think I've got this sussed in my head now, so panic over.  If we're here again 3 years down the line though, someone kick my ass!

One last thing though - if it REALLY only is genetic attraction, I'm stuffed.  No-one would knowingly mate with a disabled person ever if this is the case, and that's patently not true, so there are exceptions to all rules   Mind you, natural selection hasn't managed to remove the NH syndrome from the genepool just yet so there must be some strengths to it - he he