OK, I just thought I'd update you guys on perhaps the most profound difference I've found yet (although, me being up at this time, on a work night, wide awake, is evidence of my continuing insomnia... but I digress).
Basically, I am broke. I have a lot of overdraft, through years of carelessness with my money. For the first time today, I've had a moment of clarity that something has to be done about it, and I've sat thinking about the changes I can make in order to improve things for most of the evening....
Now, that does ultimately involve making some sacrifices... however, not only would I have not have had the motivation to even think about this if I was stoned, but I would have found the whole concept of making sacrifices VERY daunting, and quite simply I would not have done it.
In fact this weekend has proved that I *can* get by without being out the house, getting stoned and wasting money all of the time, and now it just does not seem as daunting. I now have plans about how I can improve my money situation, and no longer does it seem so desperate!
Theres just no way I would have accepted doing this had I been stoned
I think the worst is coming to an end, just need to get this insomnia sorted. That could take a bit longer.
Oh... and I'm also beginning to get my short term memory back, a little bit
